1 00:00:01,501 --> 00:00:03,103 (soft music) 2 00:00:03,203 --> 00:00:06,072 (glass shattering) 3 00:00:26,493 --> 00:00:29,129 (soft music) 4 00:00:32,799 --> 00:00:35,535 (water babbling) 5 00:01:30,190 --> 00:01:33,259 (bus engine roaring) 6 00:01:41,434 --> 00:01:44,170 (wind blowing) 7 00:01:52,312 --> 00:01:54,214 - Hey you, Teddy? - Yeah, Leo? 8 00:01:54,314 --> 00:01:58,284 - [Leo] Yeah, you wanna throw your stuff in the trunk? 9 00:02:10,463 --> 00:02:13,900 - Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you. 10 00:02:14,000 --> 00:02:16,336 So what are you writing? 11 00:02:17,837 --> 00:02:18,705 - [Teddy] A novel. 12 00:02:20,306 --> 00:02:21,841 I've been stuck at the last third for a long time. 13 00:02:21,941 --> 00:02:25,445 I just need some time to really nail it, you know? 14 00:02:25,545 --> 00:02:26,479 - [Leo] Yeah. 15 00:02:26,579 --> 00:02:30,350 Well, I don't write, but I know what you mean. 16 00:02:32,719 --> 00:02:35,255 - This is amazing. - Yeah. 17 00:02:35,355 --> 00:02:38,458 You'll be out here in the middle of nowhere for a while. 18 00:02:38,558 --> 00:02:39,592 - [Teddy] No kidding. 19 00:02:40,560 --> 00:02:42,428 - [Leo] You'll get a lot of writing done. 20 00:02:42,529 --> 00:02:44,197 - [Teddy] How long have you been acting? 21 00:02:45,198 --> 00:02:49,569 - [Leo] Oh, I've been trying for about four years now. 22 00:02:49,669 --> 00:02:52,539 - How's it going? - It's okay. 23 00:02:52,639 --> 00:02:54,474 I mean mostly small stuff. 24 00:02:54,574 --> 00:02:56,276 No commercials yet or anything. 25 00:02:56,376 --> 00:02:57,677 - Yeah, that must be tough. 26 00:03:08,488 --> 00:03:11,291 God, Leo, this is amazing. 27 00:03:11,391 --> 00:03:12,525 - Wait 'til you see inside. 28 00:03:40,453 --> 00:03:41,321 - Great. 29 00:03:42,455 --> 00:03:43,723 - [Leo] How about a drink? 30 00:03:44,924 --> 00:03:46,759 - [Teddy] What do you like to do here? 31 00:03:46,859 --> 00:03:50,330 - [Leo] Crispin pays me a bit to keep the place in shape. 32 00:03:50,430 --> 00:03:51,397 Lots of great hikes. 33 00:03:53,333 --> 00:03:56,002 Sometimes I play music and I like to dance. 34 00:03:56,102 --> 00:03:57,704 You know, in private. 35 00:03:58,805 --> 00:03:59,672 - [Teddy] Cool. 36 00:04:01,407 --> 00:04:02,942 - [Leo] I don't usually admit that. 37 00:04:03,042 --> 00:04:05,612 (mellow music) 38 00:04:07,413 --> 00:04:08,348 - Jesus. 39 00:04:08,448 --> 00:04:10,583 - [Leo] Yeah. 40 00:04:12,986 --> 00:04:16,022 - It just, you don't see this many stars 41 00:04:16,122 --> 00:04:16,956 in the city. 42 00:04:19,425 --> 00:04:20,960 Kind of puts things in perspective. 43 00:04:26,499 --> 00:04:27,367 (chuckling) 44 00:04:27,467 --> 00:04:28,635 - You must be exhausted. 45 00:04:29,569 --> 00:04:31,971 - I am gonna pass out soon. 46 00:04:33,439 --> 00:04:34,440 - Sorry we got so drunk. 47 00:04:36,109 --> 00:04:37,510 Was kind of my influence. 48 00:04:38,745 --> 00:04:40,446 - [Teddy] I like to drink too. 49 00:04:42,982 --> 00:04:44,384 Good thing I'm not staying. 50 00:04:44,484 --> 00:04:45,985 - You wouldn't get any work done. 51 00:04:50,790 --> 00:04:53,326 - It's be nice if you stopped by though. 52 00:04:53,426 --> 00:04:55,862 It could get lonely otherwise. 53 00:05:00,033 --> 00:05:00,900 - Yeah, I'll see. 54 00:05:11,778 --> 00:05:14,380 (bright music) 55 00:05:24,490 --> 00:05:29,495 ♪ Try me, sun's last today 56 00:05:31,030 --> 00:05:36,035 ♪ Before it all became 57 00:05:37,170 --> 00:05:42,375 ♪ Falling not to get up 58 00:05:43,776 --> 00:05:48,781 ♪ Before nothing could change 59 00:05:50,049 --> 00:05:55,054 ♪ Balance, ticking, what's there ♪ 60 00:05:56,456 --> 00:06:01,394 ♪ Trying senseless (indistinct) ♪ 61 00:06:20,079 --> 00:06:20,980 - Hi. 62 00:06:21,981 --> 00:06:22,882 - How'd you sleep? 63 00:06:24,550 --> 00:06:25,651 - Great. 64 00:06:25,752 --> 00:06:27,487 I think I have a hangover though. 65 00:06:29,555 --> 00:06:33,426 Hm, what time is it? 66 00:06:34,727 --> 00:06:35,828 - It feels late. 67 00:06:38,564 --> 00:06:39,465 - I need a shower. 68 00:06:41,601 --> 00:06:42,735 - Shower doesn't work. 69 00:06:44,237 --> 00:06:45,471 - What? 70 00:06:46,572 --> 00:06:47,840 - It's busted. 71 00:06:49,575 --> 00:06:52,578 - When I stay here, usually I don't bathe most of the time, 72 00:06:55,248 --> 00:06:56,649 but when I do... 73 00:06:57,917 --> 00:06:59,485 - What do you do? 74 00:07:00,853 --> 00:07:02,121 - You got a bathing suit? 75 00:07:03,589 --> 00:07:06,592 - Um, no. 76 00:07:07,393 --> 00:07:09,595 - Crispin's got one that you can borrow. 77 00:07:11,631 --> 00:07:14,467 (bright music) 78 00:07:25,745 --> 00:07:30,750 ♪ Don't try understanding 79 00:07:34,554 --> 00:07:39,559 ♪ Fractions of a cloud detailed ♪ 80 00:07:40,693 --> 00:07:45,498 ♪ Why don't I remember it's a chore ♪ 81 00:07:48,901 --> 00:07:53,906 ♪ And I'm sending, withholding even more ♪ 82 00:07:58,344 --> 00:08:02,148 ♪ Something's gotta give up lately ♪ 83 00:08:02,248 --> 00:08:06,719 ♪ We summarize 84 00:08:06,819 --> 00:08:11,791 ♪ Something's gotta measure my memory ♪ 85 00:08:15,061 --> 00:08:20,066 ♪ Don't worry me, try nothing, I ♪ 86 00:08:24,070 --> 00:08:28,074 ♪ Do you want my wave 87 00:08:28,174 --> 00:08:32,612 ♪ Bound to say I do 88 00:08:32,712 --> 00:08:37,149 ♪ Do you want my wave 89 00:08:37,250 --> 00:08:40,219 ♪ Bound to say I do 90 00:08:51,230 --> 00:08:52,565 - I should get going soon. 91 00:08:54,634 --> 00:08:55,701 - Don't leave right away. 92 00:08:57,236 --> 00:08:58,704 - What about your writing? 93 00:09:00,239 --> 00:09:02,675 - Well, I'm concerned 94 00:09:02,775 --> 00:09:04,977 I might not know everything about this house. 95 00:09:06,245 --> 00:09:07,647 - There's not much else. 96 00:09:08,714 --> 00:09:09,582 - What about the car? 97 00:09:12,852 --> 00:09:13,786 - Car works fine. 98 00:09:17,423 --> 00:09:19,792 - I guess I'm just afraid to get to my writing. 99 00:09:21,394 --> 00:09:24,730 - Yeah, I'm sensing that. 100 00:09:41,080 --> 00:09:41,948 - Thanks. 101 00:09:43,149 --> 00:09:44,016 - Call me anytime. 102 00:09:45,017 --> 00:09:46,686 - I had a lot of fun last night. 103 00:09:48,754 --> 00:09:50,289 - Get some writing done, Teddy. 104 00:09:51,324 --> 00:09:52,191 - Okay. 105 00:09:56,762 --> 00:09:59,632 (engine starting) 106 00:10:16,716 --> 00:10:18,684 (sighing) 107 00:10:50,816 --> 00:10:52,718 (sighing) 108 00:11:34,326 --> 00:11:38,164 The biggest obstacle I have is translating what I actually 109 00:11:39,065 --> 00:11:40,466 feel into words. 110 00:11:40,566 --> 00:11:43,202 I think I know what I'm saying until I read it later, 111 00:11:43,302 --> 00:11:44,937 then it usually sucks. 112 00:11:45,037 --> 00:11:48,340 - [Man] Just takes practice and diligence. 113 00:11:48,441 --> 00:11:50,776 You don't get better until you've done it a lot. 114 00:11:53,279 --> 00:11:54,747 - [Teddy] I wish I had someplace 115 00:11:54,847 --> 00:11:56,816 quiet and away from the city 116 00:11:56,916 --> 00:11:58,451 where I could write this damn thing. 117 00:12:00,319 --> 00:12:01,921 - [Leo] I think I could help you. 118 00:12:38,591 --> 00:12:41,460 (door slamming) 119 00:13:05,951 --> 00:13:08,220 (shouting) 120 00:13:28,240 --> 00:13:30,376 (whining) 121 00:13:40,653 --> 00:13:42,354 - [Teddy] Hello? 122 00:13:42,454 --> 00:13:47,193 - Hey, Leo, Teddy, just checking in on you. 123 00:13:47,293 --> 00:13:48,627 You got in okay? 124 00:13:48,727 --> 00:13:50,996 - [Teddy] Yeah, how's the writing going? 125 00:13:51,096 --> 00:13:52,198 - Great. 126 00:13:52,298 --> 00:13:53,866 Yeah, I've written some pages. 127 00:13:53,966 --> 00:13:55,367 Not as many as I'd like, but. 128 00:13:55,467 --> 00:13:57,536 - [Teddy] Well, it's only your first day. 129 00:13:57,636 --> 00:13:58,470 - Yeah. 130 00:14:00,439 --> 00:14:03,075 So you're going on any auditions or anything? 131 00:14:04,009 --> 00:14:06,011 - [Teddy] No, I gotta work this weekend. 132 00:14:08,681 --> 00:14:10,182 - When's your next day off? 133 00:14:11,617 --> 00:14:13,219 - [Teddy] (laughing) Are you lonely already? 134 00:14:13,319 --> 00:14:15,354 - Well, I mean, it's nice 135 00:14:15,454 --> 00:14:17,656 to have some human contact, you know. 136 00:14:17,756 --> 00:14:18,958 - [Teddy] You inviting me back out there? 137 00:14:19,058 --> 00:14:20,626 - Yeah, of course. 138 00:14:20,726 --> 00:14:21,627 I mean, by the end of this weekend, 139 00:14:21,860 --> 00:14:25,030 I'll have written 20 pages, that's amazing for me. 140 00:14:27,032 --> 00:14:29,635 This place is really inspiring. 141 00:14:29,735 --> 00:14:31,570 - [Teddy] Well, I'll plan on coming up on Monday, 142 00:14:31,670 --> 00:14:33,973 I'm not supposed to work again until Thursday. 143 00:14:34,740 --> 00:14:35,975 - Great. 144 00:14:36,075 --> 00:14:37,443 I mean, that should be cool. 145 00:14:38,377 --> 00:14:40,913 I guess I can handle being alone until then. 146 00:14:41,714 --> 00:14:44,250 - [Teddy] Well, call me if you need anything. 147 00:14:46,452 --> 00:14:48,587 - Okay, man, bye. 148 00:14:49,455 --> 00:14:50,923 - [Teddy] See ya. 149 00:15:02,067 --> 00:15:04,970 (phone beeping) 150 00:15:10,409 --> 00:15:11,343 (phone ringing) 151 00:15:12,411 --> 00:15:13,279 - Hello? 152 00:15:13,412 --> 00:15:15,681 - Crispin, it's Teddy. 153 00:15:15,781 --> 00:15:18,717 - Hello Teddy, how are you coming up? 154 00:15:18,817 --> 00:15:22,688 - God, I just have to tell you your house is amazing. 155 00:15:22,788 --> 00:15:24,957 Thanks so much for letting me stay here. 156 00:15:26,025 --> 00:15:28,027 - [Crispin] I'm glad you're using it, how's the weather? 157 00:15:28,127 --> 00:15:30,029 - Just what you think, hot and sunny. 158 00:15:31,497 --> 00:15:32,498 - Leo drive you? 159 00:15:34,366 --> 00:15:36,302 - He is very nice. 160 00:15:37,503 --> 00:15:38,604 You've known him awhile? 161 00:15:38,704 --> 00:15:41,173 - You know, I knew his parents. 162 00:15:41,273 --> 00:15:42,975 - Oh. 163 00:15:43,075 --> 00:15:44,977 I thought you could have been lovers once. 164 00:15:46,378 --> 00:15:48,747 - [Crispin] Oh no, he's like a little nephew to me. 165 00:15:48,847 --> 00:15:50,616 I could never do that. 166 00:15:50,716 --> 00:15:51,583 - Is he gay? 167 00:15:53,285 --> 00:15:54,453 - [Crispin] He's had girlfriends in the past. 168 00:15:54,553 --> 00:15:56,388 I think he's probably bi. 169 00:15:56,488 --> 00:15:58,023 Who isn't these days? 170 00:16:00,559 --> 00:16:01,427 You have to. 171 00:16:05,130 --> 00:16:08,133 - Yeah, but I shouldn't be telling you that. 172 00:16:09,802 --> 00:16:12,604 - [Crispin] Well, good luck figuring out the puzzle. 173 00:16:15,708 --> 00:16:17,343 - You know your shower doesn't work. 174 00:16:17,443 --> 00:16:19,345 - [Crispin] Changing the subject. 175 00:16:19,445 --> 00:16:21,213 It hasn't worked since the earthquake. 176 00:16:21,313 --> 00:16:22,548 I never bothered to fix it. 177 00:16:22,648 --> 00:16:24,249 I usually take baths when I go out there. 178 00:16:24,350 --> 00:16:25,184 - Where? 179 00:16:26,618 --> 00:16:27,753 - [Crispin] I do it with hot water from the hose. 180 00:16:27,853 --> 00:16:30,089 You stretch the hose out in the sun. 181 00:16:30,189 --> 00:16:32,224 The water's a decent temperature to bathe in. 182 00:16:32,324 --> 00:16:33,158 - Okay. 183 00:16:34,693 --> 00:16:36,395 - [Crispin] But there are thousands of hot springs 184 00:16:36,495 --> 00:16:38,297 you can go to, those are always nice. 185 00:16:40,299 --> 00:16:41,166 - Yeah. 186 00:16:42,835 --> 00:16:43,736 - And the writing? 187 00:16:45,604 --> 00:16:47,039 - Great. 188 00:16:47,139 --> 00:16:48,040 Couldn't be a better place 189 00:16:48,140 --> 00:16:49,775 for me to finish this damn thing. 190 00:16:49,875 --> 00:16:52,511 Thanks again so much. 191 00:16:52,611 --> 00:16:54,646 - Well, keep in touch, my dear. 192 00:16:54,747 --> 00:16:56,382 Anything you need, call Leo. 193 00:16:56,482 --> 00:16:58,417 He knows the house very well. 194 00:16:58,517 --> 00:16:59,351 - Okay. 195 00:17:00,853 --> 00:17:02,287 Talk to you soon, Crispin. 196 00:17:02,388 --> 00:17:04,123 - [Crispin] Bye, now. 197 00:17:21,607 --> 00:17:24,610 (crickets chirping) 198 00:17:29,748 --> 00:17:30,616 - Shit. 199 00:17:36,155 --> 00:17:38,757 (bright music) 200 00:19:29,801 --> 00:19:32,638 (energetic music) 201 00:20:16,648 --> 00:20:19,451 (energetic music) 202 00:20:31,964 --> 00:20:36,969 ♪ I hear by, give up all that you need to ♪ 203 00:20:39,671 --> 00:20:44,676 ♪ And since I fell to the station ♪ 204 00:20:47,012 --> 00:20:51,984 ♪ Open doors to (indistinct) 205 00:20:54,419 --> 00:20:59,358 ♪ Happens still far to go 206 00:21:01,126 --> 00:21:05,697 ♪ And we don't leave this up for the lonesome days ♪ 207 00:21:05,797 --> 00:21:06,632 ♪ We talked about 208 00:21:06,732 --> 00:21:07,833 - I really missed you. 209 00:21:08,500 --> 00:21:10,068 - [Leo] You been to town at all? 210 00:21:10,168 --> 00:21:12,971 - Nah, just been writing. 211 00:21:13,071 --> 00:21:14,406 - [Leo] You got bags under your eyes. 212 00:21:14,506 --> 00:21:16,808 - (laughing) Yeah. 213 00:21:16,908 --> 00:21:19,311 I'm on a night schedule now. 214 00:21:19,411 --> 00:21:20,779 - You want a beer? - Sure. 215 00:21:31,590 --> 00:21:33,558 So how was work this week? 216 00:21:33,659 --> 00:21:34,993 - [Leo] Made a lot of tips. 217 00:21:35,927 --> 00:21:37,496 - Ever thought of doing a play? 218 00:21:38,630 --> 00:21:39,998 - Yeah, I've done a few. 219 00:21:40,999 --> 00:21:41,867 Why? 220 00:21:41,967 --> 00:21:42,801 - Just asking, 221 00:21:44,469 --> 00:21:46,405 thought it might be better than waiting for that commercial. 222 00:21:46,505 --> 00:21:47,472 - Well, yeah, usually. 223 00:21:48,607 --> 00:21:50,008 There's no money in it though. 224 00:21:51,743 --> 00:21:52,944 - Ever thought of doing something 225 00:21:53,045 --> 00:21:54,880 where money wasn't the main objective? 226 00:21:57,883 --> 00:21:59,484 - Yeah, all the time. 227 00:22:00,786 --> 00:22:02,421 I'm just getting tired of it. 228 00:22:06,692 --> 00:22:08,026 So what's your book about? 229 00:22:10,162 --> 00:22:15,367 - Basically about a crazy family from the Midwest, 230 00:22:16,568 --> 00:22:19,504 a family who crumbles when their son comes out as gay. 231 00:22:21,773 --> 00:22:22,908 - Autobiographical? 232 00:22:23,775 --> 00:22:25,911 - Yeah, a bit. 233 00:22:30,515 --> 00:22:32,517 So do you have a girlfriend? 234 00:22:36,088 --> 00:22:36,955 - I'm in between? 235 00:22:38,824 --> 00:22:40,659 - What was your last girlfriend like? 236 00:22:42,928 --> 00:22:43,929 - Nothing serious. 237 00:22:45,230 --> 00:22:47,666 - Did you like to dance with her? 238 00:22:47,766 --> 00:22:49,468 - No, she was into rock shows. 239 00:22:49,568 --> 00:22:51,403 - And you don't really dance at a rock show? 240 00:22:51,503 --> 00:22:54,139 - No, you sway. 241 00:22:56,208 --> 00:22:59,010 - (laughing) I like the way you do that. 242 00:22:59,111 --> 00:23:02,013 (both laughing) 243 00:23:02,114 --> 00:23:04,449 (soft music) 244 00:23:07,586 --> 00:23:09,488 How about something stronger? 245 00:23:11,223 --> 00:23:12,424 - Sure. 246 00:23:30,575 --> 00:23:32,577 - So have you only been with women? 247 00:23:33,845 --> 00:23:34,846 - Who wants to know? 248 00:23:39,751 --> 00:23:42,754 I've had my share of diverse experiences. 249 00:23:47,259 --> 00:23:48,593 - You're hard to read. 250 00:23:51,129 --> 00:23:53,832 - I used to think that everyone was bisexual, 251 00:23:53,932 --> 00:23:56,935 but women don't like to hear guys talk like that. 252 00:23:59,037 --> 00:24:02,007 - Yeah, I guess not. 253 00:24:02,107 --> 00:24:03,775 - So I don't talk about it much. 254 00:24:08,880 --> 00:24:11,149 - When you met me, did you think I was gay? 255 00:24:14,753 --> 00:24:15,620 - I don't know. 256 00:24:18,023 --> 00:24:19,624 A little maybe. 257 00:24:20,358 --> 00:24:22,227 - I'm totally gay. (both laughing) 258 00:24:22,327 --> 00:24:23,161 - Totally gay. 259 00:24:27,966 --> 00:24:31,169 - So tell me about your diverse experiences. 260 00:24:38,910 --> 00:24:41,980 - When I was 12, I used to fool around 261 00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:44,115 with this neighborhood kid. 262 00:24:44,216 --> 00:24:45,250 - [Teddy] Really? 263 00:24:45,350 --> 00:24:46,551 What did you do? 264 00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:53,525 - Well, we were talking one day about what do we feel like 265 00:24:54,926 --> 00:24:56,995 if a, if a girl sucked your cock, you know, just, 266 00:24:57,095 --> 00:25:00,599 just wondering about it and, and then he said, 267 00:25:00,699 --> 00:25:03,535 "Hey Leo, oh no, no, no. 268 00:25:03,635 --> 00:25:05,136 "Nevermind, nevermind." 269 00:25:05,237 --> 00:25:07,939 So of course I didn't know what he was gonna say. 270 00:25:08,039 --> 00:25:10,942 I had to pull it out of him and, 271 00:25:11,042 --> 00:25:16,014 and he said that if I wanted that he would suck my cock. 272 00:25:21,386 --> 00:25:23,688 - Where were you, what time of day was it? 273 00:25:24,756 --> 00:25:29,561 It was nighttime and we were right near my garage. 274 00:25:29,661 --> 00:25:34,633 So we went into my garage and he sucked my cock. 275 00:25:36,968 --> 00:25:38,970 (both laughing) 276 00:25:39,070 --> 00:25:41,039 - Did you like it? - Yeah! 277 00:25:43,642 --> 00:25:45,710 That was my first time, so I never forgot it, 278 00:25:47,112 --> 00:25:51,249 but then he wanted me to suck his, and I did, 279 00:25:52,117 --> 00:25:53,919 but I didn't like it. 280 00:25:55,387 --> 00:25:58,623 It was kind of smelly. (Teddy laughing) 281 00:26:01,159 --> 00:26:02,327 - What happened? 282 00:26:02,427 --> 00:26:03,662 Did you guys keep fooling around? 283 00:26:06,264 --> 00:26:07,599 - Here and there, yeah. 284 00:26:10,068 --> 00:26:12,137 - [Teddy] Did you ever go further than blowjobs? 285 00:26:13,004 --> 00:26:13,872 - No. 286 00:26:15,006 --> 00:26:17,776 Just touching and blowjobs. 287 00:26:21,046 --> 00:26:21,913 That's sweet. 288 00:26:23,682 --> 00:26:24,749 - It was what it was. 289 00:26:27,786 --> 00:26:29,621 - [Teddy] Whatever happened? 290 00:26:29,721 --> 00:26:30,889 Did you guys keep in touch? 291 00:26:33,291 --> 00:26:35,360 - Well, he became a total pothead 292 00:26:35,460 --> 00:26:37,395 and then I moved away and I heard 293 00:26:37,495 --> 00:26:39,798 that he got into heavier drugs after that. 294 00:26:41,833 --> 00:26:43,635 - Trying to deal with being gay. 295 00:26:45,904 --> 00:26:46,771 - You think? 296 00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:49,908 - Yeah. 297 00:26:54,112 --> 00:26:55,113 - So what about you? 298 00:26:56,081 --> 00:26:57,649 When did you know you were gay? 299 00:27:01,052 --> 00:27:03,121 - I think I was five. 300 00:27:04,222 --> 00:27:06,391 I was at a gas station with my mom 301 00:27:06,491 --> 00:27:08,193 and the gas station attendant. 302 00:27:09,928 --> 00:27:12,864 He was so beautiful. 303 00:27:12,964 --> 00:27:15,667 He had slick black hair 304 00:27:15,767 --> 00:27:18,336 and his pants were dirty with oil stains. 305 00:27:18,436 --> 00:27:20,138 He was smacking gum. 306 00:27:20,238 --> 00:27:23,775 And I told my mom that I wanted to take home the gas station 307 00:27:23,875 --> 00:27:27,679 man to be my dad. (Leo laughing) 308 00:27:28,546 --> 00:27:31,082 - You wanted to take the gas man home? 309 00:27:32,484 --> 00:27:33,985 - He was probably 20. 310 00:27:34,953 --> 00:27:36,154 - What did your mom say? 311 00:27:37,422 --> 00:27:40,992 - She shushed me and told me not to say things like that. 312 00:27:43,828 --> 00:27:44,763 - Keep it secret. 313 00:27:45,830 --> 00:27:47,065 - Yeah. 314 00:27:47,165 --> 00:27:48,867 For years, unfortunately. 315 00:27:51,102 --> 00:27:55,140 And when I was 19 and tried to come out, 316 00:27:56,841 --> 00:27:58,910 she told me that I wasn't gay. 317 00:27:59,010 --> 00:28:01,713 I've never been with a girl and how can I know for sure? 318 00:28:03,848 --> 00:28:04,983 Fucking a nightmare. 319 00:28:10,255 --> 00:28:11,256 - So what'd you do? 320 00:28:17,262 --> 00:28:19,164 - Went to college and became asexual. 321 00:28:29,407 --> 00:28:30,408 Want another? 322 00:28:38,483 --> 00:28:39,350 - Yeah. 323 00:28:48,460 --> 00:28:50,028 That really sucks, man. 324 00:28:51,896 --> 00:28:52,764 - What's that? 325 00:28:53,731 --> 00:28:57,435 - You know, having to repress yourself like that. 326 00:29:00,305 --> 00:29:01,306 - Yeah. 327 00:29:01,573 --> 00:29:04,142 But eventually it reached a breaking point and that's where 328 00:29:04,242 --> 00:29:06,978 my novel happens, then the aftermath. 329 00:29:08,913 --> 00:29:10,381 - So what happened? 330 00:29:10,482 --> 00:29:11,983 - I don't want to give it away. 331 00:29:14,586 --> 00:29:15,787 - Okay. 332 00:29:26,998 --> 00:29:31,803 - This is a truth serum. (laughing) 333 00:29:33,605 --> 00:29:37,008 - Yeah. (both chuckling) 334 00:29:38,476 --> 00:29:41,513 - So are we just gonna stay here all night and get drunk? 335 00:29:45,950 --> 00:29:47,819 - We should do something else, right? 336 00:29:47,919 --> 00:29:48,953 - Yeah. 337 00:29:57,629 --> 00:30:00,498 (energetic music) 338 00:30:12,443 --> 00:30:17,448 ♪ Summertime, don't give it all away ♪ 339 00:30:20,018 --> 00:30:25,023 ♪ Special lives, I look in your eyes ♪ 340 00:30:27,659 --> 00:30:29,861 ♪ Were you gonna miss it 341 00:30:29,961 --> 00:30:34,933 ♪ Don't turn on a leaf, this is true ♪ 342 00:30:36,067 --> 00:30:40,438 ♪ Domicile, just pretend there's nothing left to do ♪ 343 00:30:43,675 --> 00:30:48,246 ♪ Right up to this kiss goodbye, won't you tell me ♪ 344 00:30:48,346 --> 00:30:53,284 ♪ Do you realize (indistinct) on my way here ♪ 345 00:30:56,154 --> 00:30:59,023 ♪ I feel all crazy 346 00:31:09,634 --> 00:31:12,303 (both laughing) 347 00:31:21,579 --> 00:31:26,017 ♪ Right on through this kiss goodbye, won't you tell me ♪ 348 00:31:26,117 --> 00:31:31,089 ♪ Do you realize, (indistinct) on my way here ♪ 349 00:31:34,092 --> 00:31:38,663 ♪ I feel crazy, right on through this kiss goodbye ♪ 350 00:31:38,763 --> 00:31:41,266 ♪ Won't you tell me 351 00:31:41,366 --> 00:31:44,669 ♪ It's been a long time 352 00:32:17,268 --> 00:32:19,971 (tense music) 353 00:34:41,546 --> 00:34:42,413 - Leo, wait! 354 00:34:46,551 --> 00:34:47,418 Get out. 355 00:34:56,294 --> 00:34:58,129 Please don't be mad at me. 356 00:34:58,229 --> 00:35:00,431 - Teddy, it's not your fault. 357 00:35:01,732 --> 00:35:02,600 It's my fault. 358 00:35:04,302 --> 00:35:06,370 I shouldn't have. - Don't you see? 359 00:35:06,471 --> 00:35:08,372 You liked it and now you're running away. 360 00:35:08,473 --> 00:35:10,174 - No, Teddy. 361 00:35:11,943 --> 00:35:13,277 I'm not gay. 362 00:35:14,278 --> 00:35:16,247 - Leo, I think you might be. 363 00:35:16,347 --> 00:35:17,582 - Teddy, I'm sorry. 364 00:35:19,450 --> 00:35:20,751 - Leo, please. 365 00:35:20,852 --> 00:35:22,353 I've been waiting to see you all week 366 00:35:22,453 --> 00:35:23,287 and now you're leaving. 367 00:35:23,387 --> 00:35:24,889 - Teddy, let go. 368 00:35:24,989 --> 00:35:26,257 - Leo. - Let go. 369 00:35:26,357 --> 00:35:27,225 - Come on please. 370 00:35:30,962 --> 00:35:32,663 I'm sorry. 371 00:35:32,763 --> 00:35:35,166 I'm just a lonely, melodramatic fag. 372 00:35:37,301 --> 00:35:38,736 - I'll be back, all right? 373 00:35:38,769 --> 00:35:39,637 - All right. 374 00:35:42,707 --> 00:35:44,775 - Ow, ow, ow, Jesus! 375 00:35:50,014 --> 00:35:50,882 Just great. 376 00:35:56,454 --> 00:35:59,323 (engine starting) 377 00:36:12,603 --> 00:36:15,473 (discordant music) 378 00:37:56,107 --> 00:37:58,442 (gasping) 379 00:38:09,120 --> 00:38:11,622 (tense music) 380 00:39:07,511 --> 00:39:08,379 - Teddy. 381 00:39:11,515 --> 00:39:12,516 Teddy? 382 00:40:06,504 --> 00:40:09,006 (tense music) 383 00:40:13,577 --> 00:40:14,612 Teddy, Teddy! 384 00:40:22,520 --> 00:40:24,588 I've been searching, I know (indistinct). 385 00:40:25,523 --> 00:40:27,658 He finished writing a novel. 386 00:40:27,758 --> 00:40:29,727 I read it, and... 387 00:40:29,827 --> 00:40:32,129 - [Crispin] What do you think? 388 00:40:32,229 --> 00:40:33,197 - [Leo] It was beautiful. 389 00:40:33,497 --> 00:40:35,866 - [Crispin] Is there any way you can send me the manuscript? 390 00:40:35,966 --> 00:40:38,202 - [Leo] Crispin, he's missing and you want me to send it? 391 00:40:38,302 --> 00:40:41,539 - [Crispin] Leo, send it to me, that's all I ask. 392 00:40:41,639 --> 00:40:43,941 - [Leo] Okay, I'll do it. 393 00:40:44,041 --> 00:40:47,478 - [Crispin] And for god's sake, call the police. 394 00:40:47,578 --> 00:40:50,080 - [Leo] Yeah, I'll do that too. 395 00:40:51,649 --> 00:40:56,620 (siren wailing) (soft tense music) 396 00:42:01,819 --> 00:42:02,686 - Honey. 397 00:42:12,096 --> 00:42:12,963 Leo. 398 00:42:17,401 --> 00:42:18,269 - Yeah? 399 00:42:19,703 --> 00:42:21,872 - Could you put some stuff on my shoulders? 400 00:42:25,009 --> 00:42:25,876 - Sure. 401 00:42:38,422 --> 00:42:41,625 (rapid tense music) 402 00:43:17,027 --> 00:43:22,032 ♪ Watch the mouse carefully 403 00:43:26,303 --> 00:43:31,308 ♪ With delicate descriptions I used to know ♪ 404 00:43:34,478 --> 00:43:39,683 ♪ In a small, like a rescue 405 00:43:40,784 --> 00:43:45,723 ♪ In slow motion 406 00:43:45,823 --> 00:43:50,794 ♪ The river falls 407 00:43:52,196 --> 00:43:57,201 ♪ The river falls onto 408 00:43:58,802 --> 00:44:03,707 ♪ Disadvantage and so cross where the bend is ♪ 409 00:44:06,510 --> 00:44:09,213 ♪ We get lost 410 00:44:19,523 --> 00:44:22,760 ♪ Watch the mouse 411 00:44:25,029 --> 00:44:27,698 (indistinct) 412 00:44:29,533 --> 00:44:32,970 (muffled voice speaking) 413 00:44:37,441 --> 00:44:38,308 - Hi. 414 00:44:42,880 --> 00:44:44,848 - Good morning. - Good afternoon. 415 00:44:48,519 --> 00:44:49,920 - Was that Crispin on the phone? 416 00:44:50,020 --> 00:44:51,455 - Yeah. 417 00:44:51,555 --> 00:44:53,791 He wanted to tell you that the book made the New York Times 418 00:44:53,891 --> 00:44:54,725 bestseller list. 419 00:44:59,530 --> 00:45:00,397 - Incredible. 420 00:45:04,134 --> 00:45:07,905 - Hey, now can we go on a little vacation? 421 00:45:09,273 --> 00:45:12,276 - Isn't that what we've been doing? 422 00:45:12,376 --> 00:45:13,210 - I know. 423 00:45:14,578 --> 00:45:17,881 I mean, actually go somewhere instead of staying put. 424 00:45:19,316 --> 00:45:20,884 - Where do you want to go? 425 00:45:22,152 --> 00:45:23,053 - I don't know. 426 00:45:24,888 --> 00:45:27,891 - Maybe a boat cruise or something silly like that. 427 00:45:29,927 --> 00:45:30,928 - Who are you again? 428 00:45:32,096 --> 00:45:33,797 - That's no way to speak to your wife. 429 00:45:41,572 --> 00:45:44,341 (dramatic music) 430 00:46:07,598 --> 00:46:10,567 ♪ Afraid I don't have to 431 00:46:10,667 --> 00:46:12,402 - [Cheryl] At the party the other night, I noticed 432 00:46:12,503 --> 00:46:14,471 that young guy was looking right at you. 433 00:46:16,006 --> 00:46:17,107 What'd you say to him? 434 00:46:18,242 --> 00:46:19,843 - [Leo] Told him that I was married. 435 00:46:21,879 --> 00:46:24,014 - [Cheryl] What did you say to that? 436 00:46:24,114 --> 00:46:27,584 - [Leo] He told me that he thought I was cute. 437 00:46:27,684 --> 00:46:29,586 (indistinct) 438 00:46:29,686 --> 00:46:33,957 You know how gay men are, they speak their minds. 439 00:46:34,925 --> 00:46:36,927 - [Cheryl] Like when a woman knows what she wants. 440 00:46:37,027 --> 00:46:38,328 - [Leo] Like you. 441 00:46:38,428 --> 00:46:40,497 (wife chuckling) 442 00:46:40,597 --> 00:46:42,132 - [Cheryl] Like me. 443 00:46:43,567 --> 00:46:47,905 I know I want you, (indistinct). 444 00:46:48,005 --> 00:46:49,006 - [Leo] Yeah. 445 00:46:50,240 --> 00:46:55,245 ♪ Shall I demonstrate 446 00:46:57,581 --> 00:47:02,519 ♪ With you 447 00:47:03,086 --> 00:47:05,989 ♪ What I promised to 448 00:47:15,399 --> 00:47:16,867 - Where were you? 449 00:47:20,604 --> 00:47:21,538 - Just out. 450 00:47:27,945 --> 00:47:29,279 - What's happening to you? 451 00:47:36,286 --> 00:47:37,421 - I don't know 452 00:47:41,191 --> 00:47:42,926 - You're fucking someone, aren't you? 453 00:47:51,034 --> 00:47:51,902 - I don't know. 454 00:47:58,308 --> 00:48:00,310 - I don't even know you. 455 00:48:04,481 --> 00:48:06,550 That's all I am to you, right? 456 00:48:06,650 --> 00:48:07,651 The place to live. 457 00:48:09,987 --> 00:48:10,787 - Cheryl, what are you talking about? 458 00:48:11,021 --> 00:48:12,990 - Just get the fuck out of here, you monster! 459 00:48:13,090 --> 00:48:16,059 (grunting and crying) 460 00:48:19,062 --> 00:48:20,130 - Okay, okay. 461 00:48:43,253 --> 00:48:44,121 Ow! 462 00:48:45,789 --> 00:48:47,090 You bitch! 463 00:48:48,292 --> 00:48:50,227 (Cheryl laughing) 464 00:48:50,327 --> 00:48:51,228 Jesus! 465 00:49:00,237 --> 00:49:01,638 - So you're gonna hit me now. 466 00:49:06,043 --> 00:49:08,045 Just get the fuck out of here, Leo. 467 00:49:12,549 --> 00:49:15,152 (soft sobbing) 468 00:49:18,155 --> 00:49:23,160 (water running) (soft music) 469 00:51:19,309 --> 00:51:21,778 (soft music) 470 00:51:33,523 --> 00:51:35,425 - Been waiting for you. 471 00:53:32,375 --> 00:53:33,677 - I'm sorry about before. 472 00:53:35,679 --> 00:53:37,380 - Do you think I'd turn you away? 473 00:53:38,782 --> 00:53:39,649 - I don't know. 474 00:53:42,419 --> 00:53:43,653 How's your writing going? 475 00:53:45,388 --> 00:53:46,389 - Okay. 476 00:53:47,924 --> 00:53:50,727 I think I've written about 10 pages since I last saw you. 477 00:53:52,062 --> 00:53:55,398 - What's your book called? (soft music) 478 00:53:55,498 --> 00:53:56,333 - I don't know. 479 00:53:57,934 --> 00:54:00,403 I'll wait until the end and get a feeling from it. 480 00:54:02,973 --> 00:54:05,275 - What about Goodbye? 481 00:54:06,943 --> 00:54:07,811 - Goodbye. 482 00:54:11,681 --> 00:54:12,582 Why Goodbye? 483 00:54:15,418 --> 00:54:17,854 - Oh, I guess that's what you said to your family. 484 00:54:19,556 --> 00:54:20,423 - Yeah, I guess. 485 00:54:23,126 --> 00:54:25,428 - We all say goodbye at some point. 486 00:54:27,130 --> 00:54:28,765 - Stay a while this time. 487 00:54:30,734 --> 00:54:32,035 - How long are you staying? 488 00:54:32,135 --> 00:54:33,637 - Two months. 489 00:54:33,737 --> 00:54:35,438 - I want to finish before then. 490 00:54:41,978 --> 00:54:42,846 What? 491 00:54:44,014 --> 00:54:44,881 - Hm? 492 00:54:46,116 --> 00:54:48,718 Nothing. - Is something wrong? 493 00:54:52,122 --> 00:54:56,026 - I just see these images sometimes. 494 00:54:57,627 --> 00:54:58,995 - What did you just see? 495 00:55:02,465 --> 00:55:03,933 - It's always something terrible. 496 00:55:05,468 --> 00:55:06,469 Something awful. 497 00:55:07,604 --> 00:55:09,873 - [Teddy] Like what, someone dead? 498 00:55:12,008 --> 00:55:13,610 - I don't want to talk about it. 499 00:55:15,812 --> 00:55:16,780 - Scary. 500 00:55:19,482 --> 00:55:20,550 - No, it's nothing. 501 00:55:28,491 --> 00:55:29,893 - Have you ever been in love? 502 00:55:37,634 --> 00:55:38,768 - I used to be married. 503 00:55:40,170 --> 00:55:42,872 - Wow, really? 504 00:55:42,972 --> 00:55:43,907 - Was a while ago. 505 00:55:45,442 --> 00:55:46,409 - How old were you? 506 00:55:48,211 --> 00:55:49,412 - 20. 507 00:55:50,580 --> 00:55:51,514 - [Teddy] So young. 508 00:55:53,650 --> 00:55:54,718 How did you know her? 509 00:55:55,919 --> 00:55:56,953 - We worked together. 510 00:56:00,590 --> 00:56:01,991 - Any kids? - No. 511 00:56:04,928 --> 00:56:06,396 - [Teddy] You still in touch? 512 00:56:09,532 --> 00:56:10,400 - She's dead now. 513 00:56:15,805 --> 00:56:16,673 - I'm sorry. 514 00:56:20,210 --> 00:56:21,411 - It's okay. 515 00:56:24,481 --> 00:56:25,682 - What did she die from? 516 00:56:28,151 --> 00:56:30,487 - She was found murdered outside our house. 517 00:56:32,555 --> 00:56:33,857 - Was it ever solved? 518 00:56:39,229 --> 00:56:40,096 - No. 519 00:56:41,231 --> 00:56:43,466 - Are you trying to terrify me? 520 00:56:44,968 --> 00:56:46,035 - Well, you asked. 521 00:56:47,270 --> 00:56:48,438 - Fuck. 522 00:56:52,742 --> 00:56:53,843 What was she like? 523 00:56:57,046 --> 00:56:58,448 - She was really pretty. 524 00:56:59,983 --> 00:57:01,151 - Who did she look like? 525 00:57:02,519 --> 00:57:04,454 - [Leo] You ask a lot of questions. 526 00:57:05,655 --> 00:57:07,524 - It's just, I've never 527 00:57:07,624 --> 00:57:09,659 felt that strongly about someone else. 528 00:57:15,265 --> 00:57:17,066 - It was just natural. 529 00:57:19,269 --> 00:57:20,136 - Do you miss her? 530 00:57:21,871 --> 00:57:22,772 - [Leo] Sometimes. 531 00:57:24,007 --> 00:57:24,874 - Like when? 532 00:57:28,645 --> 00:57:29,512 - Every day. 533 00:57:32,549 --> 00:57:33,750 - So you still love her. 534 00:57:35,785 --> 00:57:36,653 - I guess. 535 00:57:47,630 --> 00:57:50,533 - Is it weird to be with me? 536 00:57:52,635 --> 00:57:53,636 - No. 537 00:57:55,104 --> 00:57:55,972 I missed you. 538 00:57:59,642 --> 00:58:01,544 Been thinking about you. 539 00:58:51,861 --> 00:58:52,729 - [Teddy] Hey. 540 00:58:54,831 --> 00:58:57,000 - How's it going? - All right. 541 00:58:58,368 --> 00:58:59,636 Taking care of business? 542 00:58:59,736 --> 00:59:01,037 - Yeah. 543 00:59:01,137 --> 00:59:02,238 - Yeah, me too. 544 00:59:03,973 --> 00:59:05,108 Do you want to go somewhere? 545 00:59:06,142 --> 00:59:07,343 - Why? 546 00:59:07,443 --> 00:59:09,178 - Just want to get away. 547 00:59:09,279 --> 00:59:10,647 - You're giving up on your writing? 548 00:59:10,747 --> 00:59:13,716 - No, just taking a break. 549 00:59:15,652 --> 00:59:17,220 - Don't stop. 550 00:59:17,253 --> 00:59:18,121 Keep going. 551 00:59:22,659 --> 00:59:23,326 - What's that? 552 00:59:25,395 --> 00:59:26,596 - Jesus. 553 00:59:28,932 --> 00:59:31,134 (panting) 554 00:59:56,426 --> 00:59:58,761 (sobbing) 555 01:00:12,041 --> 01:00:13,042 - Leo, what's wrong? 556 01:00:15,778 --> 01:00:16,980 What are you crying about? 557 01:00:20,350 --> 01:00:24,921 - I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 558 01:00:25,021 --> 01:00:25,955 - You should eat. 559 01:00:29,325 --> 01:00:30,193 - Yeah. 560 01:00:32,495 --> 01:00:33,730 Yeah. 561 01:00:45,508 --> 01:00:46,876 - When do you work next? 562 01:00:50,213 --> 01:00:52,215 - I don't. - You quit? 563 01:00:55,518 --> 01:00:56,753 - You could say that. 564 01:00:59,288 --> 01:01:00,356 - You okay with money? 565 01:01:05,495 --> 01:01:07,096 - You ask a lot of questions. 566 01:01:09,499 --> 01:01:11,234 - Well, you're not very talkative. 567 01:01:13,403 --> 01:01:15,772 - I'm going through some shit, sorry. 568 01:01:15,872 --> 01:01:16,706 - That's apparent. 569 01:01:21,310 --> 01:01:23,446 - I'm trying to spare you the gory details. 570 01:01:24,847 --> 01:01:26,449 - You can talk to me, Leo. 571 01:01:26,549 --> 01:01:28,117 Otherwise what's the point? 572 01:01:43,533 --> 01:01:46,736 You want to be buried or cremated? 573 01:01:51,140 --> 01:01:52,742 - I want to be buried at sea. 574 01:01:56,412 --> 01:01:58,948 You? - Cremated. 575 01:01:59,048 --> 01:02:00,049 Just seems easier. 576 01:02:03,886 --> 01:02:06,122 - You think about death a lot. 577 01:02:06,155 --> 01:02:07,023 - Sort of. 578 01:02:10,560 --> 01:02:15,031 Just think about how long I'll have to write and whether 579 01:02:15,131 --> 01:02:17,100 what I write'll mean anything to anyone. 580 01:02:20,436 --> 01:02:22,905 - I'm pretty sure life is meaningless. 581 01:02:23,005 --> 01:02:23,840 - Why? 582 01:02:27,910 --> 01:02:31,848 - I just don't understand how it's so unfair to some people 583 01:02:33,983 --> 01:02:34,851 like my wife. 584 01:02:37,453 --> 01:02:39,188 Why would someone want to kill her? 585 01:02:41,991 --> 01:02:42,859 - Yeah. 586 01:02:44,460 --> 01:02:46,462 Fucked up things happening in the world. 587 01:02:48,598 --> 01:02:51,934 But I think everything happens for a reason. 588 01:02:53,269 --> 01:02:55,505 - You think that she was killed for a reason? 589 01:02:56,939 --> 01:02:59,142 - I don't think that she deserved to die, 590 01:02:59,242 --> 01:03:03,246 but it was just her time. 591 01:03:09,952 --> 01:03:10,820 - Her time. 592 01:03:11,954 --> 01:03:12,889 - Yeah. 593 01:03:12,989 --> 01:03:13,956 I mean, we all have to die. 594 01:03:14,123 --> 01:03:16,893 Sometimes it's by accident, car crash or something. 595 01:03:21,097 --> 01:03:22,498 - Struck by lightning. 596 01:03:22,532 --> 01:03:23,399 - Yeah. 597 01:03:28,371 --> 01:03:30,573 - Do you think that there's always a reason? 598 01:03:31,474 --> 01:03:34,443 - I think that we need to be good to each other 599 01:03:34,544 --> 01:03:35,845 while we're on the planet. 600 01:03:37,413 --> 01:03:40,583 After that there's a whole other set of circumstances 601 01:03:40,683 --> 01:03:41,884 we have to deal with. 602 01:03:43,286 --> 01:03:44,153 - Think so? 603 01:03:45,354 --> 01:03:50,159 - I don't believe in God, but I believe in life energy, 604 01:03:50,693 --> 01:03:53,996 like natural resource. 605 01:03:55,131 --> 01:03:55,998 - Like water? 606 01:03:56,666 --> 01:03:57,867 - Exactly. 607 01:04:06,042 --> 01:04:07,944 - Are you taking the bus back to Ohio? 608 01:04:09,679 --> 01:04:11,013 - Yeah, when it's time. 609 01:04:18,721 --> 01:04:21,190 - You should get back to your writing, Teddy. 610 01:04:25,428 --> 01:04:26,295 - Would you slice some watermelon? 611 01:04:26,329 --> 01:04:27,196 It's in the fridge. 612 01:04:30,633 --> 01:04:31,500 - Sure. 613 01:04:34,237 --> 01:04:35,905 - Then I'll get back to work. 614 01:04:39,308 --> 01:04:42,044 (tense music) 615 01:05:37,667 --> 01:05:40,369 (eerie humming) 616 01:05:43,139 --> 01:05:44,573 - Don't leave me. 617 01:06:18,274 --> 01:06:23,279 (eerie music) (water trickling) 618 01:06:38,861 --> 01:06:42,064 (crickets chirping) 619 01:06:54,610 --> 01:06:56,045 - What scared you as a kid? 620 01:06:59,715 --> 01:07:01,617 - Getting up in the middle of the night, 621 01:07:02,651 --> 01:07:05,254 because I always thought that something like a big, 622 01:07:05,354 --> 01:07:09,125 giant hand with sharp nails was gonna grab my ankle 623 01:07:09,225 --> 01:07:11,794 and not let go. (laughing) 624 01:07:11,894 --> 01:07:13,195 - Yeah, me too. 625 01:07:15,531 --> 01:07:17,566 - Did that ever happen to you? 626 01:07:17,666 --> 01:07:20,736 - No, did it happen to you? 627 01:07:22,204 --> 01:07:23,072 - Oh yeah. 628 01:07:23,873 --> 01:07:27,343 All the time, still does. 629 01:07:27,443 --> 01:07:29,845 (fierce gobbling) 630 01:07:29,945 --> 01:07:32,248 - Shit, you're scaring me. 631 01:07:36,552 --> 01:07:38,220 Active imagination, huh? 632 01:07:39,522 --> 01:07:40,389 - Yeah. 633 01:07:43,893 --> 01:07:45,428 - You should do some writing. 634 01:07:49,899 --> 01:07:51,367 - Maybe I will. 635 01:07:53,903 --> 01:07:55,104 - Trust me, Leo. 636 01:07:56,305 --> 01:07:57,239 We'll work on it. 637 01:08:04,780 --> 01:08:07,583 (energetic music) 638 01:08:45,955 --> 01:08:51,160 ♪ Too much time by the river 639 01:08:52,561 --> 01:08:57,566 ♪ So this ghost don't lose me 640 01:08:59,235 --> 01:09:04,173 ♪ Saturation 641 01:09:05,007 --> 01:09:10,212 ♪ So went down the other day 642 01:09:11,580 --> 01:09:16,585 ♪ Mistaking something you're not to say ♪ 643 01:09:17,920 --> 01:09:22,925 ♪ Affection was a landslide 644 01:09:24,326 --> 01:09:29,331 ♪ And that is all I got to give ♪ 645 01:09:30,599 --> 01:09:35,471 ♪ I wake up stalling, that emotion ♪ 646 01:09:35,571 --> 01:09:39,275 ♪ We come by when you say that 647 01:09:39,375 --> 01:09:44,346 ♪ We come by, we come by, we come by when you say that ♪ 648 01:09:45,881 --> 01:09:50,886 ♪ We come by, we come by, we come by when you say that ♪ 649 01:09:51,987 --> 01:09:57,293 ♪ We come by, we come by, we come by when you say that ♪ 650 01:09:58,360 --> 01:10:00,429 ♪ We come by, we come by 651 01:10:00,529 --> 01:10:05,501 (Leo panting) (eerie music) 652 01:10:18,581 --> 01:10:19,915 God, the water's cold. 653 01:10:25,387 --> 01:10:26,255 What did you touch? 654 01:10:31,961 --> 01:10:32,828 - Nothing. 655 01:10:39,802 --> 01:10:43,005 (crickets chirping) 656 01:10:43,105 --> 01:10:44,273 - Leo. 657 01:10:46,542 --> 01:10:50,546 I was thinking maybe tomorrow you should head back home. 658 01:10:53,015 --> 01:10:53,882 - Really? 659 01:10:55,618 --> 01:10:58,921 - It's just, I need some time alone to do some writing. 660 01:10:59,021 --> 01:11:02,291 I like having you here, but you're distracting me. 661 01:11:03,726 --> 01:11:04,593 - Yeah. 662 01:11:07,563 --> 01:11:11,033 - You seem moody lately. 663 01:11:11,133 --> 01:11:12,835 Maybe you need some time alone too. 664 01:11:15,771 --> 01:11:16,639 - Yeah. 665 01:11:17,873 --> 01:11:19,642 - Or maybe you need to look for another job 666 01:11:19,742 --> 01:11:20,843 or acting, you know? 667 01:11:22,978 --> 01:11:23,846 - Yeah. 668 01:11:27,916 --> 01:11:28,784 - I'm sorry. 669 01:11:30,119 --> 01:11:32,621 - No, that's okay, I'll go. 670 01:11:35,524 --> 01:11:37,059 - Come back though. 671 01:11:37,159 --> 01:11:38,360 In a few days. 672 01:11:42,464 --> 01:11:43,365 - Okay, sure. 673 01:11:45,467 --> 01:11:46,368 - You're not angry? 674 01:11:48,003 --> 01:11:48,937 - No, of course not. 675 01:11:51,407 --> 01:11:54,376 (crickets chirping) 676 01:12:14,963 --> 01:12:17,633 (birds singing) 677 01:12:37,786 --> 01:12:39,588 - How'd you sleep last night? 678 01:12:40,823 --> 01:12:42,458 You were acting strange. 679 01:12:45,794 --> 01:12:46,662 - Okay. 680 01:12:52,234 --> 01:12:54,870 (phone ringing) 681 01:12:59,808 --> 01:13:01,143 - Hello? - How are you, Cheryl? 682 01:13:01,243 --> 01:13:02,544 - [Cheryl] Hi. 683 01:13:03,612 --> 01:13:04,480 Hold on. 684 01:13:06,148 --> 01:13:07,416 Leo, it's Crispin. 685 01:13:10,219 --> 01:13:11,453 - Hello? 686 01:13:12,855 --> 01:13:15,557 - [Crispin] Leo, I have a favor to ask. 687 01:13:15,657 --> 01:13:18,494 I have a friend, a former student of mine who I'm letting 688 01:13:18,594 --> 01:13:20,095 stay at my house in the desert. 689 01:13:24,566 --> 01:13:25,467 - What's his name? 690 01:13:26,235 --> 01:13:28,570 - [Crispin] It'd Teddy, Teddy Rapaport. 691 01:13:31,507 --> 01:13:33,509 - Do I know him? 692 01:13:33,609 --> 01:13:35,944 - [Crispin] I don't think you've met. 693 01:13:36,044 --> 01:13:38,180 He's arriving in a few days and since you have keys 694 01:13:38,280 --> 01:13:40,182 I was hoping you could pick him up 695 01:13:40,282 --> 01:13:41,984 and bring him to the house. 696 01:13:42,084 --> 01:13:45,154 Open it up, show him the premises. 697 01:13:47,256 --> 01:13:49,758 - What would you do if I couldn't pick them up? 698 01:13:51,126 --> 01:13:53,929 - [Crispin] I have some other friends who stay there. 699 01:13:54,029 --> 01:13:56,799 They might help, I just thought since you stay there 700 01:13:56,899 --> 01:14:01,203 so often you know the place better than me. 701 01:14:01,303 --> 01:14:04,473 - Okay, yeah, yeah, I can pick him up. 702 01:14:05,741 --> 01:14:07,609 - [Crispin] You're a doll. 703 01:14:07,709 --> 01:14:09,878 He arrives on the 4:00 PM bus Tuesday. 704 01:14:11,914 --> 01:14:13,482 - Okay, I'll be there. 705 01:14:18,187 --> 01:14:20,022 - Where are you going? 706 01:14:20,055 --> 01:14:20,923 - Crispin's. 707 01:14:22,324 --> 01:14:24,560 - [Cheryl] So you'll stay there overnight. 708 01:14:25,627 --> 01:14:26,495 - Yeah. 709 01:14:29,198 --> 01:14:30,899 - You're always going out of town. 710 01:14:36,839 --> 01:14:41,009 Do you want to do something with me? 711 01:14:41,109 --> 01:14:42,511 - You want to go to the zoo? 712 01:14:44,780 --> 01:14:45,647 - That's sweet. 713 01:14:47,182 --> 01:14:48,584 - Yeah. 714 01:14:48,684 --> 01:14:49,518 It should be fun. 715 01:14:50,953 --> 01:14:52,654 - We haven't been in a while. 716 01:14:53,822 --> 01:14:54,690 - Yeah. 717 01:14:56,925 --> 01:15:01,864 (crackling) (eerie music) 718 01:15:02,598 --> 01:15:03,265 Cheryl, I... 719 01:15:04,666 --> 01:15:05,534 - Hm? 720 01:15:07,236 --> 01:15:08,103 - Nothing. 721 01:15:17,012 --> 01:15:19,314 - What are you thinking? 722 01:15:19,414 --> 01:15:21,149 (eerie crackling) 723 01:15:21,250 --> 01:15:22,684 - [Leo] About the elephants. 724 01:15:24,386 --> 01:15:26,221 - [Cheryl] You and those elephants. 725 01:15:26,321 --> 01:15:28,557 - [Leo] You don't like them? 726 01:15:28,657 --> 01:15:33,328 - [Cheryl] I like all the animals, just not snakes. 727 01:15:33,428 --> 01:15:36,098 (eerie music) 728 01:16:14,670 --> 01:16:19,675 ♪ So let go, whisper slowly and I mention ♪ 729 01:16:22,177 --> 01:16:27,182 ♪ Listen to what we can't believe ♪ 730 01:16:28,283 --> 01:16:33,689 ♪ Down on the corner, sleepers so adore a counter ♪ 731 01:16:36,224 --> 01:16:41,229 ♪ The last time forever 732 01:16:43,031 --> 01:16:47,703 ♪ Happily chasing the nights away ♪ 733 01:16:47,803 --> 01:16:50,706 ♪ Nothing more to give up 734 01:16:50,806 --> 01:16:53,976 ♪ This morning, honestly 735 01:17:04,987 --> 01:17:07,255 - More recently it's been argued that schizophrenia 736 01:17:07,356 --> 01:17:08,390 is just one end of the spectrum 737 01:17:08,490 --> 01:17:10,125 of human experience and behavior. 738 01:17:10,225 --> 01:17:11,093 Not a mental illness 739 01:17:11,193 --> 01:17:13,061 and everybody in society may have some 740 01:17:13,161 --> 01:17:15,197 such experience in their life. 741 01:17:15,297 --> 01:17:17,933 This is known as the continuum model of psychosis 742 01:17:18,033 --> 01:17:21,670 or the dimensional approach and is most notably argued by 743 01:17:21,770 --> 01:17:25,974 psychologist Simon Rodel and psychiatrist Peter van Kerr. 744 01:17:42,257 --> 01:17:43,425 Hey, gorgeous. 745 01:17:44,493 --> 01:17:47,229 (waves crashing) 746 01:17:53,035 --> 01:17:54,836 - [Leo] You want to do something with me? 747 01:17:57,506 --> 01:17:58,707 - Come here. 748 01:18:01,009 --> 01:18:01,977 - [Leo] I love you. 749 01:18:08,850 --> 01:18:11,253 - I love you too, my darling. 750 01:18:13,121 --> 01:18:13,989 - [Leo] Sun's out. 751 01:18:17,392 --> 01:18:19,194 - You work on that tan, my love. 752 01:18:22,264 --> 01:18:25,000 (waves crashing) 753 01:18:28,870 --> 01:18:31,807 (dramatic music) 754 01:18:50,158 --> 01:18:52,060 - I missed you so much. 755 01:18:55,597 --> 01:18:56,765 - I missed you too. 756 01:18:59,501 --> 01:19:01,837 - So what do you think of our situation? 757 01:19:06,608 --> 01:19:07,776 - What do you mean? 758 01:19:09,845 --> 01:19:12,080 - You know, us? 759 01:19:17,219 --> 01:19:18,086 - I don't know. 760 01:19:21,089 --> 01:19:22,457 - I'm falling in, Leo. 761 01:19:24,326 --> 01:19:25,794 - Don't fall, Teddy. 762 01:19:26,628 --> 01:19:27,863 - I'm serious. 763 01:19:30,098 --> 01:19:30,966 - I'm not... 764 01:19:34,402 --> 01:19:36,071 You shouldn't be in love with me. 765 01:19:37,939 --> 01:19:39,207 - You don't want me to? 766 01:19:41,610 --> 01:19:43,512 - I'm just not thinking about that. 767 01:19:46,281 --> 01:19:48,016 - I wish you'd live in the present. 768 01:19:53,021 --> 01:19:54,489 - You don't know me, Teddy. 769 01:19:56,291 --> 01:19:57,859 I don't think I can know you. 770 01:19:59,227 --> 01:20:01,263 How can I love you if I don't even know you? 771 01:20:02,898 --> 01:20:03,565 - I don't know. 772 01:20:04,966 --> 01:20:06,902 I want to know you better. 773 01:20:07,002 --> 01:20:08,603 I want to love you, Leo. 774 01:20:08,703 --> 01:20:11,106 I want to spend all of my time with you 775 01:20:11,206 --> 01:20:13,041 for more than a few weeks. 776 01:20:15,644 --> 01:20:16,511 - Is that love? 777 01:20:18,647 --> 01:20:22,117 Maybe you're just lonely and I'm filling the void. 778 01:20:24,519 --> 01:20:27,389 - Yeah, maybe. 779 01:20:29,457 --> 01:20:32,861 Maybe that's all love is, filling the void. 780 01:20:33,662 --> 01:20:35,030 You're probably right. 781 01:20:38,400 --> 01:20:39,434 - That's what I think. 782 01:20:42,003 --> 01:20:43,538 - Well, now you know how I feel. 783 01:20:53,949 --> 01:20:56,318 (soft sobbing) 784 01:21:01,590 --> 01:21:05,093 - Teddy, I'm not... 785 01:21:07,963 --> 01:21:08,630 I'm sorry. 786 01:21:10,599 --> 01:21:13,969 (Teddy softly sobbing) 787 01:21:14,069 --> 01:21:15,570 It's not you, it's me. 788 01:21:20,609 --> 01:21:25,614 It's me. 789 01:21:26,615 --> 01:21:29,351 (water babbling) 790 01:21:50,372 --> 01:21:51,473 - You're not gay, Leo. 791 01:21:55,277 --> 01:21:57,579 - You haven't been with a woman. 792 01:21:57,679 --> 01:22:02,484 How can you tell if you're a, a homosexual? 793 01:22:07,555 --> 01:22:09,958 You have to find yourself. 794 01:22:12,160 --> 01:22:14,095 You're still searching, aren't you? 795 01:22:19,668 --> 01:22:21,536 I'm sure you'll figure it out. 796 01:22:29,244 --> 01:22:30,378 I love you, son. 797 01:22:37,652 --> 01:22:40,689 (Leo softly sobbing) 798 01:22:49,597 --> 01:22:52,067 (water trickling) 799 01:22:52,167 --> 01:22:54,602 (rapid music) 800 01:24:31,900 --> 01:24:33,134 - I'm done. 801 01:24:34,169 --> 01:24:35,236 - You finished the book? 802 01:24:37,539 --> 01:24:38,406 Sit down. 803 01:24:46,247 --> 01:24:47,449 - Will you read it? 804 01:24:47,549 --> 01:24:49,517 - Yeah, of course. 805 01:24:50,518 --> 01:24:51,686 That would be an honor. 806 01:24:52,787 --> 01:24:54,389 - Will you really read it, Leo? 807 01:24:55,924 --> 01:24:57,158 - Yeah, I will. 808 01:25:08,203 --> 01:25:10,405 (warm music) 809 01:26:22,343 --> 01:26:24,612 (eerie music) 810 01:26:32,787 --> 01:26:34,222 - Don't leave me. 811 01:26:45,366 --> 01:26:46,367 - I'm sorry. 812 01:26:47,669 --> 01:26:50,305 (indistinct) 813 01:26:51,039 --> 01:26:51,973 (Leo panting) 814 01:26:52,073 --> 01:26:54,542 - Leo, baby, please stop! 815 01:26:57,045 --> 01:26:59,781 (water babbling) 816 01:27:01,049 --> 01:27:04,319 (heartbeat pounding) 817 01:27:09,591 --> 01:27:12,293 (rapid music) 818 01:27:38,019 --> 01:27:43,024 ♪ There's much to know why I'm here ♪ 819 01:27:44,025 --> 01:27:49,030 ♪ Don't (indistinct) 820 01:27:50,898 --> 01:27:55,903 ♪ And I hope that you're wrong for the last time ♪ 821 01:28:01,142 --> 01:28:06,347 ♪ I'll take it one more flight 822 01:28:07,448 --> 01:28:12,020 ♪ It's only still, so we might 823 01:28:14,455 --> 01:28:19,394 ♪ And I know it's the living of just a few ♪ 824 01:28:24,132 --> 01:28:29,337 ♪ What could we do, my enemy 825 01:28:30,872 --> 01:28:35,877 ♪ Well, I can't stop trusting me ♪ 826 01:28:37,612 --> 01:28:42,617 ♪ And I hope that you're wrong for the last time ♪ 827 01:30:01,262 --> 01:30:04,499 (energetic music) 828 01:30:09,103 --> 01:30:12,106 (singer vocalizing) 829 01:31:22,977 --> 01:31:22,977 (waves crashing)